Starving: A Poem from Porridge: A Memoir


My grandma reminded me that I’ve gained weight

As a way of expressing her admiration.

You see, in her country the more you weigh

The lighter your disposition—

The less it seems that you are burdened with


Or heartache.

I wasn’t hurt by her words,

And I took them lovingly with a squeeze to her palm.

But I retreated to be bedroom for reminiscing and rummaging

Through old food diaries and counted calories—

Deprived days and rich ones filled with protruding bones

And sleepless nights.

Starving does this thing to you where you forget the beginning and the end—

Progress is infinite. Minutes become longer. And you are given the opportunity to feel present

Without fleeting.

Although I live more presently when my stomach is empty,

I don’t feel alive;

I am a ghost; light as a kite; transparent.

On my starving days and starving nights

I carve out a hollow within my soul

To wrap myself in when the world becomes too cold.

-An excerpt from Porridge: A Memoir 

A memoir about life after death, and a little girl who nearly lost her life after her father lost his.

Read Porridge from the beginning: RailingsDominoes, Destiny.

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